When I was younger, I always wanted to be a grown up. I thought driving, having your own home, being able to do anything you wanted, all of it was everything. I couldn't wait to grow up and be able to make my own decisions and be able to take care of myself. Yet, now that I am an adult and I'm able to make (most) of my decisions....... I feel a bit empty.
I can't see my family everyday, I have to make sure all of my things are taken care of, I have to manage my money, and so much more. And the truth is - it sucks. I wish I could go back to the days when all I had to worry about was my homework and packing my lunch box. I truly envy my little cousins and their lack of responsibilities. They can literally eat, sleep, play, and continue this endless cycle. They don't have to worry about multiple papers, managing their bank accounts, laundry, food, who will pick me up from BART when I decide to go home, making sure that all of my shit is together. It is now all on me and it makes me realize how stupid I was for wanting this.
I guess Mick Jagger was right - you can't always get what you want.
I can't see my family everyday, I have to make sure all of my things are taken care of, I have to manage my money, and so much more. And the truth is - it sucks. I wish I could go back to the days when all I had to worry about was my homework and packing my lunch box. I truly envy my little cousins and their lack of responsibilities. They can literally eat, sleep, play, and continue this endless cycle. They don't have to worry about multiple papers, managing their bank accounts, laundry, food, who will pick me up from BART when I decide to go home, making sure that all of my shit is together. It is now all on me and it makes me realize how stupid I was for wanting this.
I guess Mick Jagger was right - you can't always get what you want.